Week-Between Thursday

So I woke up this morning less than enthused about going back to the "other" camp but I knew that my sister was going to meet me there so I got up, dressed, had my oatmeal, brushed my teeth and made my way downtown.

When I arrived, I realized that there was no one else there. Hmm, waited a few minutes and a few cars showed up. We ended up with 5 people which was about 15 less than on Tuesday. Maybe because of the Holiday weekend?

I headed over where we were informed that this would be a "traveling day" and that we'd be doing steps. Then, with resistance bands in tow, we were off. We began jogging towards Plainfield. We did jogging, galloping, sprints, knees-ups, and more running until we reached "the steps".

Now, I've lived in GR all my life but I never knew these steps existed. They're tucked away on Plainfield and go up the Huge hill into a small neighborhood. After a few instructions, we were on our way up, I'm really not sure how many steps there were but it sure didn't seem as big of a task until I was about half way up and had to slow my pace to a walk. But I made it. We all did. Once we got to the top, we did elevated push ups, whew! Hard work but that inner G I Jane wanted to push me to get through them. Candy told us we'd be doing 20, I've never even done 10 regular push ups. How would I do this? But I pressed through. The numbers don't matter as everyone is at different strength levels but for me, I soon found out that I was able to do more than I thought I could do. And it felt good!!! I felt accomplished!!!

After the steps, we made our way back and did some core work before stretching and cooling down.

Today was a much better experience for me in a camp that I don't call my "home base". And I am considering doing some "drop-in" Saturday sessions. I was proud of myself and Rachel for finishing this class today. I know that we were both feeling drained before we started out.

I am worried about the weekend ahead. I know that the area that I still struggle with the most is food over-indulgence. I'm scared that with all the irresistible "options" that will be within my grasp, I will sabotage the work that I've put in to create a healthier body. But I want to see loved friends and family and be able hang out and kick-back. I realize that I am creating distance between myself and the people that don't support my efforts for a new healthy lifestyle. But I do I miss them. I'm trying to develop the willpower to say "no thank-you" or a strong "enough" but if I'm honest, I have to admit that I don't say "no" or "enough" until after I've had "too much".

So I'm trying to be continually aware of things around me that I know I need to stay away from. And I will work on that this weekend. I know that I can not be a hermit my whole life but maybe distance and separation is something that is okay right now while I'm in this time of re-training. Still hoping for a work-out buddy for tomorrow morning but haven't found one yet so I might head out to the gym that I am a member of and try to explore the surroundings with "new eyes" and create a heart-pumping work-out with a fresh perspective. But I'm still holding out for that partner!

Next week is a new session. Rob attended a training event since our last session so I am eagerly anticipating the new tasks that will await me. I am excited, ready and determined to begin a new month of challenging personal growth and physical successes! I CAN and I WILL!!!!!!!