R2 D5

Okay so today I will be completely honest in my blog.

I am frustrated! I rested on the couch last night, soaked my foot in an Epsom Salt bath, stretched, iced, massaged and believed that I'd wake up back to normal.

When I woke up, I circled my foot around and still felt a little bit of pain but it seemed to be much better. Then I stepped on the floor and realized immediately that I was not miraculously healed over night as I had hoped.

I took several deep breaths, got myself ready, had some breakfast and headed out the door still hopeful that it would just "go away" once I got there.

When I arrived, we did some light cardio and I felt pretty good. I actually thought for a moment that it was going away. The class did some walking, jogging and sprinting and I pretty much did light jogging and walking. I completely scaled back on how much I typically do but towards the end of the 10 minutes, I realized that the pain was still there every single time my heel touched the ground.

Next, we did some arm resistance band work, carrying ammo boxes and pushed Rob's van from one end of the parking lot to the other (I stayed on my toes...). Just about the time I started to feel like I was accomplishing something, I even almost forgot the pain was there, something "snapped". The pain worsened. I felt like there was a rubber band in the back of my foot that snapped but instead of releasing tension and pain, it seemed to create more.

My frustration quickly grew to defeat. (Massive sigh...)

Just at the time when I'm feeling like I'm "at the top of my game" and getting healthier, being able to do more than I've ever been able to do, getting stronger and faster, something is standing in my way. And it's not something that I can bust through or trample over. I'm not gonna lie, this really sucks (sorry, Mom if you're reading this, but it does!).

I am NOT a quitter, I am more determined than ever to continue to move towards a healthier me. Even though I feel frustrated, sad and honestly, a little depressed, this can't stop me. In fact, I'm probably more determined now than before. And I'm still really enjoying every single day's work-out. It's become part of my day and I can't imagine my day without it I'm headed to the doctor this morning and I'm hopeful it's something simple that will heal if I rest and slow down. I'm praying that God will take this away so that I can continue to push and challenge myself and do what's right for my body and for my health.

I'm hopeful that this is just simply a stumbling block, a hurdle that is slightly higher than some of the rest. I finished the class doing everything that I could without my left foot. I can still do abs, arms, and use my other leg to it's full ability.

So if you're reading this and you believe in God, after you thank Him for this beautiful day and some of the other blessings you've been given, and come before Him with the important things weighing on your heart, if you think of it, send up a request for a full, quick recovery for Wendy, please!