R2 D20

It was the final day of this session and I couldn't believe it was over already. I am still enjoying every day and am sad when the sessions end.

We had a great last day work-out complete with strength training of various types, endurance stuff and core.

Intensity Level : 9.2

This Boot Camp session has taught me so many things. I've been able to feel a real change in my personal strength and endurance levels. I notice that tasks around the house like carrying laundry and heavy things up and down the stairs or mowing the lawn are much easier these days. I tend to find myself busier during my days at home with less time on the computer and watching TV. I always have more energy on the days that I work out on so I've been trying to get a good work out in on Saturdays too now. I do believe that it's important for me to take a day off per week so I am still taking Sundays off. I am still amazed that I have stuck with this for the whole time. I am proud to say that I have not missed one day since the beginning. For me, that is a HUGE accomplishment!!! However, I do not continue to go because of my attendance record or to prove something to myself anymore, I can say now that Boot Camp is something that I enjoy. It makes me feel good. I truly do look forward to every single morning. And even when the tasks get tough, and they do sometimes, I WANT to do it! I KNOW that I CAN do it! And I still feel so accomplished when I follow through. I have grasped a motivation deep within my soul to push through and to strive for new goals and to be proud of myself when I get there. AND to keep reaching and making new goals instead of clinging to the old ones and stopping there.

I am finding myself looking less and less at the flaws in the mirror and looking more and more at the "whole picture" and being ok with it. I'm not going to lie and say that I never have days where I just don't feel good about how I feel people will perceive me or that I never have those days where I keep trying things on until there's a pile sky-high on my bed only to go back to the old "jeans and a black shirt" stand-by. But I will say that I am finding that there are a whole lot less of those days and that I am learning to care a lot less about how others may feel about how I look. I am finding that if someone gives me a compliment, it's a little less awkward for me and becoming a little easier to believe. I've been able to say "Thank-you." and not "Thanks, but..." I can count the number of times that I've been on the scale this month on one hand. When I do step on that scale, the number still hasn't changed much but I find myself thinking "eh, whatever..." not "OMGosh!!!", "yuck", "failure", "gross", etc...

I am finding myself reaching for food for comfort less frequently. I will not say that I have conquered this one yet because I still do struggle with it when stress gets to a high level.

I am feeling more confident in general. I've never had a problem speaking my mind in certain settings but I've surprised myself a few times within the past month to find that I've shared things that I've needed to with people that I may have, in the past, kept to myself and even though, in a few cases, it has caused conflict, I've felt good about sharing it.

I've said "yes" to a couple opportunities that I NEVER would have even considered in the past. And more importantly, I've said "NO" to some things that I've really needed to keep off my "Priority List".

I am looking ahead to the next session. I am excited. I am ready. I'm not holding anything back. This is "ME" and with every new day, I'm feeling better about who "ME" really is...