Day 10

Today was reallllllly tough getting up. I hit the snooze and layed there for a few minutes even after the second alarm went off. My body was sore and tired but I knew I had to get up. I didn't think about not going but had to assert some major effort to get my body to do what my mind knew it needed to. Feet hit the floor, half-hearted ponytail, shoes on slowly, then out the door.

I was tired on the way downtown but remained focused on the new day and the challenge ahead of me. 10 minutes is just about the right amount of time for a good attitude adjustment.

Warmed up with a good, steady run and some not-quite-long-enough stretches. We were numbered off and formed teams. We did a 2 person team relay today. Before this class, I would not have considered myself a competitive person and I guess even now, it's not about the "winning" but about using everything that is within me to do better than I did last time and to try to motivate others to do the same. We ran with ammo cans, jumped rope, did death jumps (my new name for star jumps), dips, push-ups, presses, lunges, and medicine ball tosses (definitely not our best leg of the race). Amy and I stayed together and encouraged each other throughout the race and although we didn't come in first, we finished strong!

I'm looking forward to but anxious about Monday. I'm still fearful of falling back into old habits and until that fear is gone, I plan on sticking with this. This is the first time EVER that I've made it 2 weeks without having any self-doubt or "secret sabotage". I KNOW that I can continue this. Last Monday was a really tough morning for me so I don't plan on taking the weekend "off", just maybe taking it a little easier. 2 weeks down, 2 weeks to go, I'm half way through my first boot camp!!!